Tuesday, October 07, 2008

New Blog

Check out my new blog: Krista's Stateside Scribbles

Thursday, October 02, 2008

C'est fini

I back in the states. No job. Waiting for life to get going again. Not much else to say. I'll try to start this whole thing up again soon. Bye for now.

Monday, June 30, 2008

The anticipation of loss

It comes in waves. Rolling in under the surface and then hitting with the force of a tsunami. This feeling of already missing what I have not yet lost. I think this ‘pending’ missing may actually be worse than the actual thing. Once I am gone I will miss my life and the people here, but my “new life” will be starting and will help keep my mind off of it. But for the moment I don’t have the luxury of that distraction. Being here I am being continually smacked in the face with the knowledge that the missing is coming. Will this be the last time we sit down for tea together? The last time we are passing the day just sitting under a tree talking? The last political debate? The last bush taxi ride? The last offer of sacrificing a chicken to find me a good husband? The last nightly soccer game, last dolo run, last conversation in the dark under thousands of starts, last everything? It’s coming. The end is coming quickly, but the anticipation of loss has already hit the shore.